2day receive her 2nd call...actualy she juz wana follow up d case...how 2 explain abt d case?! she is realy 2 nice jor...coz d student is fainting and weak, she bring d student 2 d hospital...in addition, she don hav her purse...meaning she juz had enuf coins 2 pay for RM1 in hospital and risking over being caught for nt having her identity card with her...omg...i wonder why her boss never seem 2 help her at all?! isnt all d boss are supposed 2 help their subordinates 2 settle problems faced?! she was like being bullied all d time by her boss...all d hard tasks will b "telan" by her...pity her is one thing...bt wat cn i realy help her?? juz listen 2 wat she wana say 2 me lo...and give her a few mooncakes for her 2 enjoy mooncake festival...bt according 2 her, her family is not celebrating it...bt i feel it weird...since she is living in a terrace house, it feel weird if her family is not celebrating...
2day was so tired...after meeting...bt after saw her, i was like fully charged and waited till she off work... (^^,)
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Monday, September 20, 2010
she called me 4 d 1st time to enquire about company matter while im working...i was nt so sure wat shld b done on the matters highlighted... :( cant help her much...
later on, there is a case whereby one of my students is so weak and was considered nt fit for exam...omg...y she always had 2 face such troublesome cases geh?? wat cn i do 2 help her?? there is nothing i cn do...she only informed me after eveyting is passed...guess im only considered as a normal fren 2 her after all...guess i shld let go of her and stop tinking of her evey moment...
Fang shou...
felt disappointed coz din met her 2day... :(
later on, there is a case whereby one of my students is so weak and was considered nt fit for exam...omg...y she always had 2 face such troublesome cases geh?? wat cn i do 2 help her?? there is nothing i cn do...she only informed me after eveyting is passed...guess im only considered as a normal fren 2 her after all...guess i shld let go of her and stop tinking of her evey moment...
Fang shou...
felt disappointed coz din met her 2day... :(
Sunday, September 19, 2010
NO MOOD !!!
2day gt 2 knw she is sick jor...bt wat cn i do?? take her 2 c a doctor?? or buy some medicine 4 her?? will it b a bit 2 much?? either i make her touched or i make myself seem more irritating 2 her?!
one of my fren ask me 2 retreat...juz stay silent by her side and only b there 4 her whenever she nid me...juz show tat u care 4 her and nt showing it 2 d whole world tat u care 4 her...how am i supposed 2 do so??
So, i guess i juz cn stay silent by her side...witout doin anyting much...juz in case i din irritates her...aii...how is she goin 2 knw tat i like her if i din show it off 2 her??
guess i juz hav 2 do d same i always do...hav 2 stop sms her again...and juz sms her when she sms me?! can i realy control myself?? :( don b so obvious even if i do like her...?! juz act as normal frens...
guess sooner or later i will hav 2 let go witout even confessing... :(
5th regret throughout all tis years moz probably...?! :(
one of my fren ask me 2 retreat...juz stay silent by her side and only b there 4 her whenever she nid me...juz show tat u care 4 her and nt showing it 2 d whole world tat u care 4 her...how am i supposed 2 do so??
So, i guess i juz cn stay silent by her side...witout doin anyting much...juz in case i din irritates her...aii...how is she goin 2 knw tat i like her if i din show it off 2 her??
guess i juz hav 2 do d same i always do...hav 2 stop sms her again...and juz sms her when she sms me?! can i realy control myself?? :( don b so obvious even if i do like her...?! juz act as normal frens...
guess sooner or later i will hav 2 let go witout even confessing... :(
5th regret throughout all tis years moz probably...?! :(
Saturday, September 18, 2010
18/09/2010 - Deep in thoughts
2day i'm in deep thoughts...
tis morning, went 2 pasar wit mum, saw the new gal which i juz met yesterday in workplace...i suppose she is cuter, younger, prettier, have bigger eyes and sweeter voice...I had a strange feeling about her...i knw her las time in secondary sch?! i wonder...bt y i care abt it??
is my feelings 4 her started 2 "goyah" oredi?? which means my feelings 4 her is finally fading?? i realy dono wat is my real feelings 4 her?! saw tat she is so helpless at times and i realy do wana help and protect her?? or is it due to her beautiful soul that i'm so in love wit her?? bt how 2 describe it?! is it due 2 our age gap that im starting 2 hav such fading feelings 4 her?? My parents keep telling me 2 find a younger 1 bt cn I realy control my feelings 4 her?? until nw, i seem cnt stop tinking of her even 4 a single moment...d moz torturing is waiting 4 her reply (sms) bt when she never reply anyting, it realy do hurt me deep inside...eveytime i c her, i will hav d excited feeling within me...
Frens asking me 2 confess as soon as possible...bt wat shld b d moz suitable moment?? some suggested in our nex trip...bt will it b like a bit 2 early?? since both of us never realy do knw much abt each other...so 4 d moment, i will continue wit hinting her tat i hav feelings 4 her...juz scared if suddenly confess, it may scared her off and in d end, i lost a close fren...and i realy don wish it will happen 2 me again... :(
each time i hear tis song, my feelings for her seem gt stronger...
tis morning, went 2 pasar wit mum, saw the new gal which i juz met yesterday in workplace...i suppose she is cuter, younger, prettier, have bigger eyes and sweeter voice...I had a strange feeling about her...i knw her las time in secondary sch?! i wonder...bt y i care abt it??
is my feelings 4 her started 2 "goyah" oredi?? which means my feelings 4 her is finally fading?? i realy dono wat is my real feelings 4 her?! saw tat she is so helpless at times and i realy do wana help and protect her?? or is it due to her beautiful soul that i'm so in love wit her?? bt how 2 describe it?! is it due 2 our age gap that im starting 2 hav such fading feelings 4 her?? My parents keep telling me 2 find a younger 1 bt cn I realy control my feelings 4 her?? until nw, i seem cnt stop tinking of her even 4 a single moment...d moz torturing is waiting 4 her reply (sms) bt when she never reply anyting, it realy do hurt me deep inside...eveytime i c her, i will hav d excited feeling within me...
Frens asking me 2 confess as soon as possible...bt wat shld b d moz suitable moment?? some suggested in our nex trip...bt will it b like a bit 2 early?? since both of us never realy do knw much abt each other...so 4 d moment, i will continue wit hinting her tat i hav feelings 4 her...juz scared if suddenly confess, it may scared her off and in d end, i lost a close fren...and i realy don wish it will happen 2 me again... :(
each time i hear tis song, my feelings for her seem gt stronger...
Friday, September 17, 2010
so PISSED OFF!!!
2day lunch tot of goin out with my mum and goin bec home 2 take my minutes' record...tot of doin 2 minutes 2day...bt in d end, all was crushed by the PROF and HER...WTH!!! PROF from overseas...b4 even joining in oredi make me so PISSED OFF...WTH... :(
sumore HER is so nt professional...scared him for wat?? coz he is a PROF?? and he is a MAN?? WTH so scary of HIM?? cnt b wit him goin 2 c a house HE is goin 2 rent?? coz he is my LECTURER?? such a STUPID answer...asked me 2 teman bt in d end, d so "good" PROF "put aeroplane"...ending up me eating 2 packs of sandwiches for nothing...WTH... :(
after office hour, went to her office...tot she don hav 2 ot anymore since d moz tiring and demanding tasks are finished...bt she worked till 9pm + las nite...i juz manage 2 help her a bit when in d office...shld i help her frm d start i enter d office?? bt wat will b her colleagues saying?? y is it always had 2 b so scared of wat ppl had 2 say?? cnt v juz do watever v 1 witout taking into account wat others said abt it??
Goin 2 hav a drink wit old frens...hav a great time...talking abt each other's life...and there will b a trip 2 penang soon in 30 Oct 2010...hopefully it wont clash wit my trip 2gether wit my favorite gang and her...so missed the las trip at d beach oh... (",)
sumore HER is so nt professional...scared him for wat?? coz he is a PROF?? and he is a MAN?? WTH so scary of HIM?? cnt b wit him goin 2 c a house HE is goin 2 rent?? coz he is my LECTURER?? such a STUPID answer...asked me 2 teman bt in d end, d so "good" PROF "put aeroplane"...ending up me eating 2 packs of sandwiches for nothing...WTH... :(
after office hour, went to her office...tot she don hav 2 ot anymore since d moz tiring and demanding tasks are finished...bt she worked till 9pm + las nite...i juz manage 2 help her a bit when in d office...shld i help her frm d start i enter d office?? bt wat will b her colleagues saying?? y is it always had 2 b so scared of wat ppl had 2 say?? cnt v juz do watever v 1 witout taking into account wat others said abt it??
Goin 2 hav a drink wit old frens...hav a great time...talking abt each other's life...and there will b a trip 2 penang soon in 30 Oct 2010...hopefully it wont clash wit my trip 2gether wit my favorite gang and her...so missed the las trip at d beach oh... (",)
Thursday, September 16, 2010
16/7/2010
went to kl 1 day trip 2 fetch my bro bec UM...happy 2 knw tat she fnally nt needed 2 work on public holiday anymore... :) finally she cn hav a whole day rest and gt time 4 her family...
feeling a bit unhappy...dono if its due to she nt replying my sms or my lack of slep?! :(
having headache and back pain after reached my sis' home at kl...
went to have lunch near my sis' home...then go 4 jusco shopping...bought a new clothes...hopefully cn wear and show it 2 her sooner or later...gt 1 clothes juz bought nt long ago...wore it before bt never had time 2 show it 2 her... :(
tinking hard when shld i do d confession?! wat shld i prepare 4 d confession...gt plans in mind...suddenly during shoppin...hehe...may touch her very much deep inside or irritates her?! muz b ready 4 her answer no matter its acceptance or rejection... no matter wat is her final answer, hopefully we cn remain as frens...juz hope that i still cn b her guardian angel...b always by her side 2 care 4 her...listen 2 wat she has 2 say...tat shld b more than enuf 4 me...
b4 my dinner, i called her 2 c how is she goin after a whole day rest...she still feel tired after whole day rest...guess she is juz 2 tired frm ot-ing till so late 4 so many days...feel excited after calling her...(",)
eat a very "delicious" dinner...omg...wat happened?? d restaurant cn survive all tis while bt their food is so "delicious" and nt cheap at all... :(
feeling a bit unhappy...dono if its due to she nt replying my sms or my lack of slep?! :(
having headache and back pain after reached my sis' home at kl...
went to have lunch near my sis' home...then go 4 jusco shopping...bought a new clothes...hopefully cn wear and show it 2 her sooner or later...gt 1 clothes juz bought nt long ago...wore it before bt never had time 2 show it 2 her... :(
tinking hard when shld i do d confession?! wat shld i prepare 4 d confession...gt plans in mind...suddenly during shoppin...hehe...may touch her very much deep inside or irritates her?! muz b ready 4 her answer no matter its acceptance or rejection... no matter wat is her final answer, hopefully we cn remain as frens...juz hope that i still cn b her guardian angel...b always by her side 2 care 4 her...listen 2 wat she has 2 say...tat shld b more than enuf 4 me...
b4 my dinner, i called her 2 c how is she goin after a whole day rest...she still feel tired after whole day rest...guess she is juz 2 tired frm ot-ing till so late 4 so many days...feel excited after calling her...(",)
eat a very "delicious" dinner...omg...wat happened?? d restaurant cn survive all tis while bt their food is so "delicious" and nt cheap at all... :(
15/9/2010
I brought a frozen mooncake ("bing pei" in cantonese which means frozen skin) for her from home...
Bt i waited till after office hour only 2 give her...then i noticed that d mooncake was actualy "suffocated" since i put it in my drawer...coz im scared my other staffs might notice on d mooncake and ask me 2 share it out wit them instead... :( I don wish tat 2 happen...
It's 6pm ++ when i delivered the mooncake 2 her...bt she is not around in office tat time...so i juz leave d mooncake wit a message on her table...
Hopefully she enjoyed eating the mooncake... (",)
Bt i waited till after office hour only 2 give her...then i noticed that d mooncake was actualy "suffocated" since i put it in my drawer...coz im scared my other staffs might notice on d mooncake and ask me 2 share it out wit them instead... :( I don wish tat 2 happen...
It's 6pm ++ when i delivered the mooncake 2 her...bt she is not around in office tat time...so i juz leave d mooncake wit a message on her table...
Hopefully she enjoyed eating the mooncake... (",)
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