2day receive her 2nd call...actualy she juz wana follow up d case...how 2 explain abt d case?! she is realy 2 nice jor...coz d student is fainting and weak, she bring d student 2 d hospital...in addition, she don hav her purse...meaning she juz had enuf coins 2 pay for RM1 in hospital and risking over being caught for nt having her identity card with her...omg...i wonder why her boss never seem 2 help her at all?! isnt all d boss are supposed 2 help their subordinates 2 settle problems faced?! she was like being bullied all d time by her boss...all d hard tasks will b "telan" by her...pity her is one thing...bt wat cn i realy help her?? juz listen 2 wat she wana say 2 me lo...and give her a few mooncakes for her 2 enjoy mooncake festival...bt according 2 her, her family is not celebrating it...bt i feel it weird...since she is living in a terrace house, it feel weird if her family is not celebrating...
2day was so tired...after meeting...bt after saw her, i was like fully charged and waited till she off work... (^^,)
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Monday, September 20, 2010
she called me 4 d 1st time to enquire about company matter while im working...i was nt so sure wat shld b done on the matters highlighted... :( cant help her much...
later on, there is a case whereby one of my students is so weak and was considered nt fit for exam...omg...y she always had 2 face such troublesome cases geh?? wat cn i do 2 help her?? there is nothing i cn do...she only informed me after eveyting is passed...guess im only considered as a normal fren 2 her after all...guess i shld let go of her and stop tinking of her evey moment...
Fang shou...
felt disappointed coz din met her 2day... :(
later on, there is a case whereby one of my students is so weak and was considered nt fit for exam...omg...y she always had 2 face such troublesome cases geh?? wat cn i do 2 help her?? there is nothing i cn do...she only informed me after eveyting is passed...guess im only considered as a normal fren 2 her after all...guess i shld let go of her and stop tinking of her evey moment...
Fang shou...
felt disappointed coz din met her 2day... :(
Sunday, September 19, 2010
NO MOOD !!!
2day gt 2 knw she is sick jor...bt wat cn i do?? take her 2 c a doctor?? or buy some medicine 4 her?? will it b a bit 2 much?? either i make her touched or i make myself seem more irritating 2 her?!
one of my fren ask me 2 retreat...juz stay silent by her side and only b there 4 her whenever she nid me...juz show tat u care 4 her and nt showing it 2 d whole world tat u care 4 her...how am i supposed 2 do so??
So, i guess i juz cn stay silent by her side...witout doin anyting much...juz in case i din irritates her...aii...how is she goin 2 knw tat i like her if i din show it off 2 her??
guess i juz hav 2 do d same i always do...hav 2 stop sms her again...and juz sms her when she sms me?! can i realy control myself?? :( don b so obvious even if i do like her...?! juz act as normal frens...
guess sooner or later i will hav 2 let go witout even confessing... :(
5th regret throughout all tis years moz probably...?! :(
one of my fren ask me 2 retreat...juz stay silent by her side and only b there 4 her whenever she nid me...juz show tat u care 4 her and nt showing it 2 d whole world tat u care 4 her...how am i supposed 2 do so??
So, i guess i juz cn stay silent by her side...witout doin anyting much...juz in case i din irritates her...aii...how is she goin 2 knw tat i like her if i din show it off 2 her??
guess i juz hav 2 do d same i always do...hav 2 stop sms her again...and juz sms her when she sms me?! can i realy control myself?? :( don b so obvious even if i do like her...?! juz act as normal frens...
guess sooner or later i will hav 2 let go witout even confessing... :(
5th regret throughout all tis years moz probably...?! :(
Saturday, September 18, 2010
18/09/2010 - Deep in thoughts
2day i'm in deep thoughts...
tis morning, went 2 pasar wit mum, saw the new gal which i juz met yesterday in workplace...i suppose she is cuter, younger, prettier, have bigger eyes and sweeter voice...I had a strange feeling about her...i knw her las time in secondary sch?! i wonder...bt y i care abt it??
is my feelings 4 her started 2 "goyah" oredi?? which means my feelings 4 her is finally fading?? i realy dono wat is my real feelings 4 her?! saw tat she is so helpless at times and i realy do wana help and protect her?? or is it due to her beautiful soul that i'm so in love wit her?? bt how 2 describe it?! is it due 2 our age gap that im starting 2 hav such fading feelings 4 her?? My parents keep telling me 2 find a younger 1 bt cn I realy control my feelings 4 her?? until nw, i seem cnt stop tinking of her even 4 a single moment...d moz torturing is waiting 4 her reply (sms) bt when she never reply anyting, it realy do hurt me deep inside...eveytime i c her, i will hav d excited feeling within me...
Frens asking me 2 confess as soon as possible...bt wat shld b d moz suitable moment?? some suggested in our nex trip...bt will it b like a bit 2 early?? since both of us never realy do knw much abt each other...so 4 d moment, i will continue wit hinting her tat i hav feelings 4 her...juz scared if suddenly confess, it may scared her off and in d end, i lost a close fren...and i realy don wish it will happen 2 me again... :(
each time i hear tis song, my feelings for her seem gt stronger...
tis morning, went 2 pasar wit mum, saw the new gal which i juz met yesterday in workplace...i suppose she is cuter, younger, prettier, have bigger eyes and sweeter voice...I had a strange feeling about her...i knw her las time in secondary sch?! i wonder...bt y i care abt it??
is my feelings 4 her started 2 "goyah" oredi?? which means my feelings 4 her is finally fading?? i realy dono wat is my real feelings 4 her?! saw tat she is so helpless at times and i realy do wana help and protect her?? or is it due to her beautiful soul that i'm so in love wit her?? bt how 2 describe it?! is it due 2 our age gap that im starting 2 hav such fading feelings 4 her?? My parents keep telling me 2 find a younger 1 bt cn I realy control my feelings 4 her?? until nw, i seem cnt stop tinking of her even 4 a single moment...d moz torturing is waiting 4 her reply (sms) bt when she never reply anyting, it realy do hurt me deep inside...eveytime i c her, i will hav d excited feeling within me...
Frens asking me 2 confess as soon as possible...bt wat shld b d moz suitable moment?? some suggested in our nex trip...bt will it b like a bit 2 early?? since both of us never realy do knw much abt each other...so 4 d moment, i will continue wit hinting her tat i hav feelings 4 her...juz scared if suddenly confess, it may scared her off and in d end, i lost a close fren...and i realy don wish it will happen 2 me again... :(
each time i hear tis song, my feelings for her seem gt stronger...
Friday, September 17, 2010
so PISSED OFF!!!
2day lunch tot of goin out with my mum and goin bec home 2 take my minutes' record...tot of doin 2 minutes 2day...bt in d end, all was crushed by the PROF and HER...WTH!!! PROF from overseas...b4 even joining in oredi make me so PISSED OFF...WTH... :(
sumore HER is so nt professional...scared him for wat?? coz he is a PROF?? and he is a MAN?? WTH so scary of HIM?? cnt b wit him goin 2 c a house HE is goin 2 rent?? coz he is my LECTURER?? such a STUPID answer...asked me 2 teman bt in d end, d so "good" PROF "put aeroplane"...ending up me eating 2 packs of sandwiches for nothing...WTH... :(
after office hour, went to her office...tot she don hav 2 ot anymore since d moz tiring and demanding tasks are finished...bt she worked till 9pm + las nite...i juz manage 2 help her a bit when in d office...shld i help her frm d start i enter d office?? bt wat will b her colleagues saying?? y is it always had 2 b so scared of wat ppl had 2 say?? cnt v juz do watever v 1 witout taking into account wat others said abt it??
Goin 2 hav a drink wit old frens...hav a great time...talking abt each other's life...and there will b a trip 2 penang soon in 30 Oct 2010...hopefully it wont clash wit my trip 2gether wit my favorite gang and her...so missed the las trip at d beach oh... (",)
sumore HER is so nt professional...scared him for wat?? coz he is a PROF?? and he is a MAN?? WTH so scary of HIM?? cnt b wit him goin 2 c a house HE is goin 2 rent?? coz he is my LECTURER?? such a STUPID answer...asked me 2 teman bt in d end, d so "good" PROF "put aeroplane"...ending up me eating 2 packs of sandwiches for nothing...WTH... :(
after office hour, went to her office...tot she don hav 2 ot anymore since d moz tiring and demanding tasks are finished...bt she worked till 9pm + las nite...i juz manage 2 help her a bit when in d office...shld i help her frm d start i enter d office?? bt wat will b her colleagues saying?? y is it always had 2 b so scared of wat ppl had 2 say?? cnt v juz do watever v 1 witout taking into account wat others said abt it??
Goin 2 hav a drink wit old frens...hav a great time...talking abt each other's life...and there will b a trip 2 penang soon in 30 Oct 2010...hopefully it wont clash wit my trip 2gether wit my favorite gang and her...so missed the las trip at d beach oh... (",)
Thursday, September 16, 2010
16/7/2010
went to kl 1 day trip 2 fetch my bro bec UM...happy 2 knw tat she fnally nt needed 2 work on public holiday anymore... :) finally she cn hav a whole day rest and gt time 4 her family...
feeling a bit unhappy...dono if its due to she nt replying my sms or my lack of slep?! :(
having headache and back pain after reached my sis' home at kl...
went to have lunch near my sis' home...then go 4 jusco shopping...bought a new clothes...hopefully cn wear and show it 2 her sooner or later...gt 1 clothes juz bought nt long ago...wore it before bt never had time 2 show it 2 her... :(
tinking hard when shld i do d confession?! wat shld i prepare 4 d confession...gt plans in mind...suddenly during shoppin...hehe...may touch her very much deep inside or irritates her?! muz b ready 4 her answer no matter its acceptance or rejection... no matter wat is her final answer, hopefully we cn remain as frens...juz hope that i still cn b her guardian angel...b always by her side 2 care 4 her...listen 2 wat she has 2 say...tat shld b more than enuf 4 me...
b4 my dinner, i called her 2 c how is she goin after a whole day rest...she still feel tired after whole day rest...guess she is juz 2 tired frm ot-ing till so late 4 so many days...feel excited after calling her...(",)
eat a very "delicious" dinner...omg...wat happened?? d restaurant cn survive all tis while bt their food is so "delicious" and nt cheap at all... :(
feeling a bit unhappy...dono if its due to she nt replying my sms or my lack of slep?! :(
having headache and back pain after reached my sis' home at kl...
went to have lunch near my sis' home...then go 4 jusco shopping...bought a new clothes...hopefully cn wear and show it 2 her sooner or later...gt 1 clothes juz bought nt long ago...wore it before bt never had time 2 show it 2 her... :(
tinking hard when shld i do d confession?! wat shld i prepare 4 d confession...gt plans in mind...suddenly during shoppin...hehe...may touch her very much deep inside or irritates her?! muz b ready 4 her answer no matter its acceptance or rejection... no matter wat is her final answer, hopefully we cn remain as frens...juz hope that i still cn b her guardian angel...b always by her side 2 care 4 her...listen 2 wat she has 2 say...tat shld b more than enuf 4 me...
b4 my dinner, i called her 2 c how is she goin after a whole day rest...she still feel tired after whole day rest...guess she is juz 2 tired frm ot-ing till so late 4 so many days...feel excited after calling her...(",)
eat a very "delicious" dinner...omg...wat happened?? d restaurant cn survive all tis while bt their food is so "delicious" and nt cheap at all... :(
15/9/2010
I brought a frozen mooncake ("bing pei" in cantonese which means frozen skin) for her from home...
Bt i waited till after office hour only 2 give her...then i noticed that d mooncake was actualy "suffocated" since i put it in my drawer...coz im scared my other staffs might notice on d mooncake and ask me 2 share it out wit them instead... :( I don wish tat 2 happen...
It's 6pm ++ when i delivered the mooncake 2 her...bt she is not around in office tat time...so i juz leave d mooncake wit a message on her table...
Hopefully she enjoyed eating the mooncake... (",)
Bt i waited till after office hour only 2 give her...then i noticed that d mooncake was actualy "suffocated" since i put it in my drawer...coz im scared my other staffs might notice on d mooncake and ask me 2 share it out wit them instead... :( I don wish tat 2 happen...
It's 6pm ++ when i delivered the mooncake 2 her...bt she is not around in office tat time...so i juz leave d mooncake wit a message on her table...
Hopefully she enjoyed eating the mooncake... (",)
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
14/9/2010
2nd day of in-house training, still enjoying a lot... :) the food and activities were so enjoyable...
when it come 2 lunchtime, after i had my lunch, i went out to look for her, hoping 2 c her again 2day...bt i never did manage to found her anywhere...i was like so hopeless tat time...tot of nt seeing her for d day...
bt in d end, i saw her standing by to watch over the exam ongoing...i was like so excited...much more excited than winning lottery, moz probably... :) v have quite an enjoyable talk...
after my in-house training end, i packed several small mooncakes for her and her colleagues to eat. I'm so glad she actually enjoyed eating d small mooncake. (",)
when it come 2 lunchtime, after i had my lunch, i went out to look for her, hoping 2 c her again 2day...bt i never did manage to found her anywhere...i was like so hopeless tat time...tot of nt seeing her for d day...
bt in d end, i saw her standing by to watch over the exam ongoing...i was like so excited...much more excited than winning lottery, moz probably... :) v have quite an enjoyable talk...
after my in-house training end, i packed several small mooncakes for her and her colleagues to eat. I'm so glad she actually enjoyed eating d small mooncake. (",)
Monday, September 13, 2010
went to in house training 2day...met a malay lady which hav been a long lost fren frm previus part time job...i was tinking...she look so familiar wit sum1 whom i oredi knw...then improve relationship wit a few colleagues whom i knw bt seldom keep in touch lo...so it was quite enjoying on d 1st day of d training...wonder wat will b 2mr program?!
saw her outside an exam hall...kinda feel excited deep inside my heart...
she was realy fed up wit her job jor currently...she keep on talking frm d moment she saw me...and telling me tat she was rushing here and there since tis morning and rushing lunch juz by throwing noodles in her throat 2 rush 4 nex exam...i was like...omg?! wat on hell had happened?? until lunch hour oso hav 2 rush...
realy hope she will feel a lot better after talking 2 me...eventhough i cnt do anyting much 2 help her...
juz hope tat she will be fine getting thru tis peak exam period... (^^,)
saw her outside an exam hall...kinda feel excited deep inside my heart...
she was realy fed up wit her job jor currently...she keep on talking frm d moment she saw me...and telling me tat she was rushing here and there since tis morning and rushing lunch juz by throwing noodles in her throat 2 rush 4 nex exam...i was like...omg?! wat on hell had happened?? until lunch hour oso hav 2 rush...
realy hope she will feel a lot better after talking 2 me...eventhough i cnt do anyting much 2 help her...
juz hope tat she will be fine getting thru tis peak exam period... (^^,)
12/9/2010
tot she was working today...bt when i sms her, she said she beh tahan jor...ot so eveyday till late nite...so she took 1 day off...then slep n rest 4 how long oso cnt replace and is not sufficient 4 her...sumhow, deep inside my heart, i felt so pity 4 her...bt wat else cn i do instead of only feeling pity towards her and supporting her by telling her 2 add oil?! her ot seem neverending... :(
at nite, i sms her again tinking tat she shld hav enuf rest by then...bt it will never b sufficient since she have sacrifice so many hours of her sleeping time 4 ot...bt wat cn do?! there are no planning in d work...eveyting was done las minit...wat happened?! how cn such a person without any planning b a boss 2 so many staffs?? sumore is a so important geh dept...hopefully d upper head will knw abt tis and soon change d big boss to a better 1 and nt a worse 1... :)
at nite, i sms her again tinking tat she shld hav enuf rest by then...bt it will never b sufficient since she have sacrifice so many hours of her sleeping time 4 ot...bt wat cn do?! there are no planning in d work...eveyting was done las minit...wat happened?! how cn such a person without any planning b a boss 2 so many staffs?? sumore is a so important geh dept...hopefully d upper head will knw abt tis and soon change d big boss to a better 1 and nt a worse 1... :)
11/9/2010
went 2 my sis' home wit family...so enjoyed playing wit my niece oh...she is goin 2 b a very pretty lady when she is grown up...
later went 2 tesco ...and ate kfc b4 gin bec...omg...2 days in a row...eating kfc... :(
later went 2 tesco ...and ate kfc b4 gin bec...omg...2 days in a row...eating kfc... :(
Friday, September 10, 2010
1st day of raya
2day feeling nt bad...bt morning due 2 hujan renyai2, i cnt go 4 my hellish cycling training... :(
2day waited 4 my colleague coming bec from kl 2 lunch 2gether wit her and colleagues...they still nid 2 ot even on 1st day of raya...tot of goin a lot of places at 1st...bt ending up in tesco eating kfc...tesco foodcourt is closed...helped her 2 reach 4 a tissue after lunch...a way of "sai sum" on wat she is doin...
2nite dinner goin 4 colleague's open house...reject even my relatives' dinner at tualang...eating seafood...bt i guess i din make a wrong choice...i enjoyed my dinner quite well...have good jokes around...she asked me 2 help her filling up her bowl with laksa...since im d person closest 2 d laksa...it's my pleasure 2 have helped her doin so... :)
later, the others complained on me only helpin her 2 fill in her bowl with laksa and nt filling in d others as well... :(
then there is a prawn session...fren asked her wana eat prawn or nt?! she said sure bt don 1 "kopek" d prawns lo...tot of "kopek" a few 4 her...bt in d end din do so...so scared of incoming gossip and rumour... :(
omg...when jealousy arisen, it will create gossip and rumour which is more destructive than nuclear weapons...it cn destroy even d strongest bond of relationship...
hopefully it din do any damage to my relationship wit her oh...hehe...(^^,)
2day waited 4 my colleague coming bec from kl 2 lunch 2gether wit her and colleagues...they still nid 2 ot even on 1st day of raya...tot of goin a lot of places at 1st...bt ending up in tesco eating kfc...tesco foodcourt is closed...helped her 2 reach 4 a tissue after lunch...a way of "sai sum" on wat she is doin...
2nite dinner goin 4 colleague's open house...reject even my relatives' dinner at tualang...eating seafood...bt i guess i din make a wrong choice...i enjoyed my dinner quite well...have good jokes around...she asked me 2 help her filling up her bowl with laksa...since im d person closest 2 d laksa...it's my pleasure 2 have helped her doin so... :)
later, the others complained on me only helpin her 2 fill in her bowl with laksa and nt filling in d others as well... :(
then there is a prawn session...fren asked her wana eat prawn or nt?! she said sure bt don 1 "kopek" d prawns lo...tot of "kopek" a few 4 her...bt in d end din do so...so scared of incoming gossip and rumour... :(
omg...when jealousy arisen, it will create gossip and rumour which is more destructive than nuclear weapons...it cn destroy even d strongest bond of relationship...
hopefully it din do any damage to my relationship wit her oh...hehe...(^^,)
Thursday, September 9, 2010
hmm...weirdo mood again...
2day din feel anytng at 1st...except 4 laziness in work...since its already raya holiday around d corner...hehe...2day since my big boss and small boss is nt around, so i hear songs whole day and in loud volume...supposed 2 b a happy day... :)
bt 2nite i gt 2 knw abt a vicious truth...she is elder than me...2 years sumore...who cn tell me?? problems arisen latershld i continue my pursuit 4 her?? or shld i stop??
since she is elder than me, even if she accepted me, there will b a lot of problems arisen later...like ppl's gossip such as "omg, wat happened 2 u?? u have quite good syarat, why choose her in d 1st place" etc??
so i guess in d end she has all her own good reasons 4 rejecting me...hmm...bt i guess i will never knw d answer...if i never confess...
moz probably, i will continue my pursuit 4 her...and confess 2 her soon... :) since she is d 1st gal who ever make me feel like wana confess... (^^,)
bt 2nite i gt 2 knw abt a vicious truth...she is elder than me...2 years sumore...who cn tell me?? problems arisen latershld i continue my pursuit 4 her?? or shld i stop??
since she is elder than me, even if she accepted me, there will b a lot of problems arisen later...like ppl's gossip such as "omg, wat happened 2 u?? u have quite good syarat, why choose her in d 1st place" etc??
so i guess in d end she has all her own good reasons 4 rejecting me...hmm...bt i guess i will never knw d answer...if i never confess...
moz probably, i will continue my pursuit 4 her...and confess 2 her soon... :) since she is d 1st gal who ever make me feel like wana confess... (^^,)
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Better mood today
tis morning langgar red light...act i wana stop geh...bt cnt brake on time...and stop after d white line...so i juz cross and langgar d red light lo...omg...it was so scary... :(
hope it never happen again...hav 2 step brake when c green light frm a far...
goin lunch wit my lecturers...at 1st tot goin 2 eat hakka lui cha at malim nawar...bt d shop din open...in d end go jeram pasar 2 eat lui cha bt only left 3 bowls...so i end up eating mix rice instead...bt d mix rice wit fried chicken, japan tauhu was quite nice 2...after lunch, go 4 coconut drink...tot of ta pao 1 packet for her...bt she is so bz...i guess she cnt b contacted...so i end up din ask her...whether she wana drink coconut water or nt...i din even try 2 call her... :(
im so coward?!
after lunch another lecturer offer to treat my colleagues and i for banana cake...left 4 pieces at 1st...tot of treating her and her colleagues...bt in d end,my colleagues suggested 2 eat it all up by shring it all among ourselves...plan failed...
bt at least i still hav d heart 2 tink at her...whenever gt sumting nice 2 share...
2nite finally tak tahan jor...sms her 2 knw more abt her recent updates...her workload is so much...cnt even finished b4 raya?? omg...raya she still hav 2 work tim...plan 2 go 2 colleagues' open house is total failure...aii...tis is goin 2 b another boring raya... :(
wish her all d best...hope she cn gt all d luck she nid...2 complete her current task on time...
i will stand by her side 4ever giving her all d support tat she nids...hope she will knw how i realy feel 4 her...sooner or later...
loving her...wana care 4 her bt cnt do so realy is torturing me physically and mentally... :(
hope it never happen again...hav 2 step brake when c green light frm a far...
goin lunch wit my lecturers...at 1st tot goin 2 eat hakka lui cha at malim nawar...bt d shop din open...in d end go jeram pasar 2 eat lui cha bt only left 3 bowls...so i end up eating mix rice instead...bt d mix rice wit fried chicken, japan tauhu was quite nice 2...after lunch, go 4 coconut drink...tot of ta pao 1 packet for her...bt she is so bz...i guess she cnt b contacted...so i end up din ask her...whether she wana drink coconut water or nt...i din even try 2 call her... :(
im so coward?!
after lunch another lecturer offer to treat my colleagues and i for banana cake...left 4 pieces at 1st...tot of treating her and her colleagues...bt in d end,my colleagues suggested 2 eat it all up by shring it all among ourselves...plan failed...
bt at least i still hav d heart 2 tink at her...whenever gt sumting nice 2 share...
2nite finally tak tahan jor...sms her 2 knw more abt her recent updates...her workload is so much...cnt even finished b4 raya?? omg...raya she still hav 2 work tim...plan 2 go 2 colleagues' open house is total failure...aii...tis is goin 2 b another boring raya... :(
wish her all d best...hope she cn gt all d luck she nid...2 complete her current task on time...
i will stand by her side 4ever giving her all d support tat she nids...hope she will knw how i realy feel 4 her...sooner or later...
loving her...wana care 4 her bt cnt do so realy is torturing me physically and mentally... :(
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
07/09/2010
Yesterday mood was nt so good...dono y?! is it realy coz din sms her jor?? or i din sleep enuf??
gt free lunch at canteen...1st time ever...i 4gt 2 inform her all abt it...mayb my instincts knw tat she is very bz...so end up controlling me 2 4gt abt telling her abt d free lunch...
2nd day din sms her at all...tot will b very uncomfortable geh tim...bt in d end, feel like nothing wo...wat a weird feeling?!
at nite, i gt a call frm a penang fren, knw her 3 years ago frm a housemate...she told me a lot abt relationship between guys and gals...she even asked me if my gf is with another guy, will i ever b able 2 4give her?? will I or won't I?
nobody knw the answer 4 d moment...
In d end, v decided to b a pair of network lover...
Slept at 2am...thanx 2 her...i helped her 2 read a document which consists of a few pages in mandarin 2 her...my mandarin is nt so good since im nt a chinese student...having a hard time reading all d chinese words in mandarin...in d end, she asked me 2 juz read 2 her d las few paragraphs...its all abt being a wife...wat a wife will do and wat a wife is??
Yesterday mood was nt so good...dono y?! is it realy coz din sms her jor?? or i din sleep enuf??
gt free lunch at canteen...1st time ever...i 4gt 2 inform her all abt it...mayb my instincts knw tat she is very bz...so end up controlling me 2 4gt abt telling her abt d free lunch...
2nd day din sms her at all...tot will b very uncomfortable geh tim...bt in d end, feel like nothing wo...wat a weird feeling?!
at nite, i gt a call frm a penang fren, knw her 3 years ago frm a housemate...she told me a lot abt relationship between guys and gals...she even asked me if my gf is with another guy, will i ever b able 2 4give her?? will I or won't I?
nobody knw the answer 4 d moment...
In d end, v decided to b a pair of network lover...
Slept at 2am...thanx 2 her...i helped her 2 read a document which consists of a few pages in mandarin 2 her...my mandarin is nt so good since im nt a chinese student...having a hard time reading all d chinese words in mandarin...in d end, she asked me 2 juz read 2 her d las few paragraphs...its all abt being a wife...wat a wife will do and wat a wife is??
Monday, September 6, 2010
Stop making u suffocate...
06/09/10
1st day...I always wana care 4 u...bt i knw 2 much care frm me may make u suffocate...so starting frm today, i plan nt 2 disturb u with my sms anymore...I don wana make u feel so stress out because of me...eventhough I cant stand nt sms-ing u...bt i will try my best 2 control my desire...I'm worried about you. Maybe you need some time for silence and calm down.... juz remember that I will always be here for you whenever you need me. (^^,)
1st day...I always wana care 4 u...bt i knw 2 much care frm me may make u suffocate...so starting frm today, i plan nt 2 disturb u with my sms anymore...I don wana make u feel so stress out because of me...eventhough I cant stand nt sms-ing u...bt i will try my best 2 control my desire...I'm worried about you. Maybe you need some time for silence and calm down.... juz remember that I will always be here for you whenever you need me. (^^,)
students nwadays... :(
las nite tink abt her 2 much...till cnt slep well... :(
tis morning was so fed up wit d only knw how 2 complain geh students...they wana score well...i knw it...bt y waste time complaining...?! study wit d complaining time which shld b abt 2 hours...they cn study a lot jor within d 2 hours...aii...realy dono wat they r tinking?! goin 2 complain me?? go ahead... I don wana care abt it anymore...since 2day my mood is nt so good, they shld b grateful...i was so mad at them...they 1 a good explanation...wat is d supposedly good explanation?? my volcano explode 4 d 2nd time jor...nt good in EQ anymore...
tis morning was so fed up wit d only knw how 2 complain geh students...they wana score well...i knw it...bt y waste time complaining...?! study wit d complaining time which shld b abt 2 hours...they cn study a lot jor within d 2 hours...aii...realy dono wat they r tinking?! goin 2 complain me?? go ahead... I don wana care abt it anymore...since 2day my mood is nt so good, they shld b grateful...i was so mad at them...they 1 a good explanation...wat is d supposedly good explanation?? my volcano explode 4 d 2nd time jor...nt good in EQ anymore...
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
sometimes really beh tahan ah...
workload is damn heavy...sumore...it seems neverending workload...eventhough its exam time and sem break goin along...bt i don seem 2 b free at all...eventhough moz students went for sem break and exam jor...timetable always nt finished and finalised...thanx 2 all "damn clever" FES ... and our ...walao eh...make me mad eveytime doin timetable...each ppl 1 tis and tat...all of them shld do it themself...so no complains...pls don ask me change tis and tat...my "damn clever " geh B yau so pandai take all big venues...say release 2 me after d elective class allocated..."all is juz a lie"...so nice 2 hear...all big venues release 2 me after d elective class allocated...F...liar...cheater...so like 2 sell fish...go market sell fish la...my 160+ bm students go 4 lecture in a small room...her 30+ student go ddk for lecture...F...wat a waste...bt still, if P din knw anyting abt tis,no problem will happen...i guess...and P wont knw...if P ever knw oso none of bisnes...so i juz hav 2 bear wit it...any1 pls help me...i dono how 2 deal wit it anymore...all so demanding...+ my resources are so damn limited...pls tell me wat cn i do...2 do a better job...mayb i shld exchange d classes?? mayb...bt tats juz in my dreams...damn hard 2 do bm and bt timetable...bm gt so many students...bt is so confusing...help...bt luckily 2day d timetable is finally finalised...bt still any clashings going on?? sure hope there wont b any...
Monday, May 10, 2010
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
WAT A BIG PROBLEM I CAUSED
today definitely is the darkest day for this year...hopefully i wont gt involved in bigger problem than the 1 i caused 2day...one of d student approached me and highlighted that her authorisation slip 4 exam consists of only 5 subjects... bt she attended classes for 6 subjects...so i end up calling here and there...rushing here and there...juz 2 help d student so tat she cn attend d examination...aii..y cnt she come earlier and nt 2day?? its my fault?? or hers?? more or less shld b mine more...i juz neglect her application 2 add d subject at 1st...so 2day hav 2 rush here and there juz 2 help her so tat she cn attend the exam is all my fault?? sumore i nid 2 send out an email 2 d big bosses confessing tat tis is a fault tat i made...and nid exam division 2 help me 2 settle it...sure die lo...no more promotion i guess...mayb worse no bonus...gt a big letter is d worst lo...ask me 2 quit...OMG...better don tink 2 much la...juz act as normal...if it realy comes...then juz hav 2 accept it la, i guess... :(
Monday, April 26, 2010
working life is so hard
why my working life cnt b any easier?? its juz 2 hard 2 maintain relationships in working place...sum1 tell me that im acting close 2 them...in real fact, i hav known them 4 a few mths jor...bt they juz claim tat i treat them like i hav knw them 4 a few years jor...claim tat i went 2 close 2 them...act 2 close 2 them bt actualy v r nt tat close?? any idea how 2 enhance the relationship with them?? i totally hav no idea...nw i juz maintain my distance frm them...nt 2 b close 2 them...nt even joining them 4 lunch jor...eventhou i did join them previously, 1 of them even say they don "choi" me 1...so i guess it makes no difference whether eating with them or eating myself lo...aii...y cnt hav close frens in working place...??!!
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